Starting over

Wow…it’s the 13th of January today. How did that happen? Blogging has taken a bit of a back seat over the last five weeks while we dealt with Christmas, New Year,and some other pretty tough stuff. 2010 got off to a less than ideal start for me as I found myself back in hospital for a second evacuation of my womb, the first procedure and subsequent course of drugs having failed to get rid of everything. On the plus side, for the first time since I became a mum,on New Year’s Eve I got to have a late night, a few drinks and then spend the entire next day in bed. Every cloud eh?

Since all this happened I have been buoyed up by the love of my wonderful husband, the smiles and crazy antics of my luminous son and the support and TLC of my friends, including a few who took time to share their own experiences making me realise that we are not alone – a notion that is both comforting and sad at once. And yes, we have been very sad, and we will never forget the baby we lost, but I feel quite strongly now that we need to move on and that I am ready to wipe the slate clean and begin again.

I’m not a great believer in New Year’s resolutions, because I always resolve to lose weight and eat healthily and I never make it past Easter because the lure of Creme Eggs always gets the better of me. But this year we do have some goals and some things to look forward to and so I thought I would paint myself a picture of what I hope our 2010 will look like, in the hope that I’ll look back in 12 months’ time and realise that we achieved what we set out to do. So in my ideal 2010 we will…

…complete and move into our new house which has caused no end of heartache but is shaping up to be more than worth it.

…conceive our third child and maybe even get to meet him or her before the year is out.

…go to the cinema and out for dinner more often, just the two of us.

…put an office in the new house so I have a space from which to launch my fab new freelance career

…walk the dogs more often.

…enjoy Bubs and try to commit every second to memory because he is growing up too fast.

…remember that we are blessed, that life is short, and try to seize the day instead of always planning for the future (even though that is a very sensible and grown-up thing to do).

And I think that’s enough for one year. Although I will be trying to lose some weight and eat healthily! A belated happy New Year to you all.